An abundance of Kim Johns
Pasabta daw ko ngano ning tawhana. Hahaha. Baleg 19 missed calls og 4 ka answered calls nga wala nako tingogi. Hmp. Arti kaagad? Hilas kaagad?Hoyhoyon pajud ko, kinsa kahay hilas ana. Pasalamat jud ka dili public kaayo akong blog kimoy. Og unsa kaha imong sala, ambot pangutan-a imong self!
Things worth documenting
I feel bad for “recycling” some of my IG photos for a blog entry like this. Idk. It feels like the essence of blogging isn’t there anymore. Haha. Okay, okay, just please don’t mind me. Anyway, the past few days weren’t that eventful but I still feel the urge to update this blog because I think “some” things just might be worth documenting.
My sister made a blog! She’s not into blogging just so you know and that’s one of the many reasons why I wanted to document this. Hahaha. The past years, she’s been trying to run a legit personal blog but always fails because idk, maybe it’s just not her thing. But she says she’s serious now, so fine, I want to see how far she could go. Haha.
She’s been staying up very late the past days too because she’s been reading “The Hunger Games” (lolwaaht?). Another thing I wanted to document is that she’s not into reading and she’s not “that” into photography but seems like she’s trying her best to make progress with the two. One morning, I saw her somewhere near the garage taking random photos. I think someone/something has been inspiring her lately. 😂 It could be Darren, but idk. Lol
I finished reading “The Selection Trilogy” finally. I don’t know what to say about it though. I think the book’s genre just wasn’t for me. I mean, I liked the story, but it’s not something that moved me, or had some sort of impact on me like Suzanne Collin’s “Mockingjay” did. I’m just not into princesses and kingdoms, I guess? But overall, it was a fun read. I liked the twist on the last few pages of the third book.
So these two decided to sleep on my bed. Ghad those dirty soles! Keep them off my sheets jade! But argh, as much as I want to lie down and rest, I don’t want to disturb my siblings, so okay, I’ll wait til morning. The lilbro actually went in my room at around 3am. I realized my other bro wasn’t home. They sleep on the same bed so that must be why lilbro was feeling uneasy. So i let him sleep on my bed instead, with her other ate, apparently.
Having a terrible headache atm too. Ugh. I don’t know what’s happening. Mom says it’s because I’ve been staying up very late the past “month”. She’s afraid that It might make my anemia worse. Hopefully it doesn’t. I just can’t get myself to sleep that early. I’m a nocturnal being huhu.
One thing I dislike most about people? They refuse to ask. They base their judgments on what most people instill in their minds and they just accept it as it is. They don’t bother ask about some other things or even bother to make things clear with the person who was being talked ill of. It’s not like it’s most people’s initiative to speak out, you know. Some people are just waiting for someone to come up to them and actually ask them about stuff. It’s not like they’re going to just go out of the open trying to persuade everyone that that’s not what happened and so on and so forth. It’s got to be a process. At least that’s what I learned. Also, don’t you think it’s kind of unfair to be one-sided? Every story has two sides to it: one you probably have heard of already and one that might fill in the blanks or answer the questions the other one failed to do. I feel like this is one reason why we always fail to achieve peace. Because peace within ourselves and these people was never there. This is gossiping. And then rumors after rumors spread like some deadly disease and there’s no way to prevent it because no one asked for the prevention in the first place. Am I making sense though? I hope I am.
So if you have something against me or needs to clarify things with me, feel free to ask. I don’t bite! Tehee. I’m sorry for ranting guise. This is solely based on my personal opinion so don’t hate lol. Anon from askfm gave me an idea about what to rant about today. I hope he/she finds the answers to his/her questions someday. :)
The perks of being sick
My thoughtful lilbro gave me these goodies (first and second photo) because I have been feeling rather unwell since yesterday plus the red days. I don’t think I have fever but I’m feeling feverish and I caught colds. I’m feeling really moody lately too because fck female hormones. Anyway, I know sweets won’t be of any help but hey, it lifted my spirits up plus it was my brother who gave it so I’m feeling a little better now. Not feeling nauseous anymore! 👍
My mom went home from doing the groceries bringing more goodies today too. I got to eat cereals before bed time. Mom just let me be because I was craving for koko crunch since last week. Haha. She brought home ice cream and more sweets. I like how she never forgets to buy nutella. She also bought me a melon flavored soya milk drink because she knows I love anything melon flavored! I’m a spoiled eldest brat, i know! But I’d rather be spoiled with food than material things. :3
Lastly, been taking meds since last night. Meds to mend a broken heart. Loljk. I hope to feel better soon!
Oh oh, before I forget, I just finished reading “The Elite”. Almost done with the series and I don’t know what to feel anymore. Sigh. Will start reading the third book later.
Hi! What a sweet message to wake up to. My mood’s now set, I think I’ll be having a pretty good day today! Thank you so much Grish and have a lovely day! 😊
Selfies with the boss
My mom. My best friend. My worst enemy. My savior. My i don’t know what else to say. Lol. She and I may still have some issues but we’re working on it. Haha. Love you ma!
Alyssa’s life lately
Before anything else, here’s a photo of my broken iphone bumper/casing (whatevs). Documenting this just because I can. Haha
Finally gotten hold of my own paperback copy of Lang Leav’s love and Misadventure. Been wandering around bookstores in Cebu and even in Mall of Asia (when I went there last January) trying to find even just a glimpse of luck but it was always out of stock, and by the time it was already available, I ain’t got no moolah to spend for it anymore. Guess that’s how life’s supposed to be. Sucks, right? Thanks to my lil bro though who bought this for me. He got it from a bookstore in NAIA when we were waiting for our departure from MNL to CEB. How thoughtful of him. Now I can have more relaxing afternoons with my daily dose of Lang Leav’s poems plus my daily dose of caffeine. Perfect!
Most nights are spent on bed with my comfy blankies, reading a good book these past few days because daym it’s the sweater weather in the Philippines. I hate to say this but I like summer better than rainy days. I’d rather have a hot temper under a scorching sun & a 40degC temperature than go all emotional and depressed on a cold rainy night. I know I’m not making any sense but that’s just how I am. I feel like I’m gonna lose all the sanity I’m trying to keep intact just in one snap when I’m sad. Foolishness overload.
Anyway, I just finished book one of The Selection series (shoutout to mimi of mideux for my ebook copy) and I’m so excited to go on with the next book and be in a reading frenzy again *squeals*. But before going on to read The Elite, here have a mirror selfie. Messy room, I know!
Lastly, you might want to follow me on instagram guise. I’m way more active there than in here. I update about my life everyday. It’s sort of like my mini blog. Hee.
PS that’s my sister’s legs! Hahaha
Wow. Never heard of such comments about my blog before. Overwhelming. I am so glad you liked it! Thank you very much! This deserves a space on my blog so I sure am publishing this! Made my day! :)
Cutest lock and homescreen ever
Hi baby Jea Ashree! Lablabyou so much! ❤️
As time goes on, you’ll understand. What lasts, lasts; what doesn’t, doesn’t. Time solves most things. And what time can’t solve, you have to solve yourself.
I love you but I cannot be with you
I was away for a few days because my family and I went to Pampanga to be there for my grandma’s wake and funeral. The title is actually a line I got from a song they played during my grandma’s funeral. Anyway, I dedicate this entry to my Lola Lhet who passed away last June 22. It’s sort of an open letter I wish for her to read someday.
June 22 - 25
I cried hard because I didn’t know how else to react. You leaving us, no one wanted to believe it was real. We were still convinced everything right now’s just a dream, until I finally saw you face to face, lying down on your coffin. Still I didn’t know how to react. We’ve been far away from each other for God knows how long but you never failed to remind us how much you love us and how much you cared for us. You will always be the best grandma I will ever have.
June 26 - 28
It seems like people are getting used to seeing you lying there. Feels like you’re just sleeping safe and sound and no one ever wants to disturb you because you seem happy about it. But every dawn, when some of us pretend to have fallen asleep, I hear your daughters cry and grieve because you left them too early, screaming your name, telling you it’s time to wake up! But you never did. Time to face reality.
Today’s the day. Your entire family are in front of you hugging your coffin. I see grandpa trying to hold back his tears for your daughters and us. He’s trying to be strong for your family, but who is he kidding? Of course he’d cry, he loves you so much. There wasn’t a day he left you all throughout your wake. He’d make you coffee every morning because you two used to do that when you were still here. He’d tell you stories he knows you would’ve loved if you were here. But you aren’t here and now you’re remains are officially leaving us.
It’s time to go. Everyone’s already wearing our “we love you mama lhet” shirt made for you. The white flowers and white balloons are all set, but no one’s actually ready for this. At the cemetery, grandpa requested to open the coffin so he could hug and kiss you one last time. They did but lola Rebie requested not to or grandpa would’ve break down. And he did. He kneeled in front of you trying to hold everything back in. Poor lolo :(
Lola, a lot of people came to see you one last time. It’s because you are an angel! And you always will be. A lot of people love and care for you so much. How dare you leave us all in here?
June 30 - July 4
We tried to act normal as if we weren’t hurt. We’d visit you everyday and pray for you everyday. We love you lola.
Now it’s time for us to leave. It’s time for us to go back to Cebu and leave this family here again. It pains me to see you leave us lola, it pains me as much as it pains me to leave lolo and my cousins here again. I will surely miss all of them.
Goodbye’s are painful.
What’s in my pink bag tag
Thanks for the tag TBF, tangledinletters!
My family and I actually just got home the other day from Pampanga. I will blog about the details soon! Anyway, I remember being tagged in some of your “what’s in my bag tag” last April (I think?). Unfortunately, I was away for i’m not sure how long that time that I wasn’t able to do it much earlier. And since I got a little spare time for now, I decided to do it, FINALLY. I’m sorry if I’m gonna break some rules though. Also, I’m gonna make this one real quick without proof reading so I apologize for some errors. :/
To start off, I got this cute pink bag from Secosana last year at around mid June. It was a random gift from my mom actually together with some more random surprises because I was under a lot of stress that time and she thought of giving me a little something to somewhat cheer me up, and apparently, I absolutely loved it. Thanks mom!
So what’s exactly in my pink bag? Of course, pink stuffs! Haha. I don’t bring a lot of things when heading out, actually. Usually, it’s just my phone, my wallet and of course my glasses for apparent reasons. But since I wanted to make this post a little grand, I added some more stuff that I do bring sometimes especially when it’s a somewhat long trip or if I’m heading to a coffee shop or the library. I bring the book that I’m currently reading (Love and Misadventure for now), my pen case for maybe some jotting down of notes, a highlighter just because. My earpods (which I finally found last month by the way) even if I don’t listen to music that much. Hm, my phone pouch that i don’t use that often, lol. And well, I also decided to include the pink and white loom band my cousin from pampanga made for me bc it could come in handy as a ponytail at times. Hahaha.
That’s that I think? Oh, before I end this post though, I just want to sincerely apologize to those who tagged me in this tag because my tracked tags doesn’t seem to be working which makes it difficult for me to mention and thank you in this entry. I hope you could send me an ask if you’re one of those who tagged me so I can mention you here. Thanks guise! And God Bless!
Tonight’s one of those nights when I feel like I’m just a waste of space. Believe me, I’m trying my best to cope with everything and I’m not sure why I’ve become this horrible pessimistic being. Could it be because of everything that’s happened to me that I begin to question what I’m here for? Whatever the reason is though, I still try to convince myself that I’m fine and that everything’s good and back to normal but then at times like this, I still find myself seeking for answers I know I will NEVER find. I feel like I’m unworthy of this life because really, what’s the point of all these? Maybe I just don’t belong somewhere. Even this entry doesn’t make any sense. Even so, I believe my sanity’s still pretty intact to remind myself not to give up, but still, enlighten me, someone.
This guy though
I woke up to his messages this morning telling me to wake up and check my email, and so I did. He sent me 5 pictures of himself. Hahaha. Because he’s the lord of vanity. Gahd. A few days ago, he mentioned about picking some watermelons from the watermelon farm in the place he’s staying at. He even told me he’d send me some when he has the time, unfortunately, he won’t ever have because he’s on a mission. He’s in Butuan right now and has to stay there for a year more to finish his service. I so miss this guy. My forever knight in shining armour. Don’t get me wrong though, he’s not my boyfriend but he used to be. Hahaha. We broke up a long time ago (it’s been waht? 6 long years) and I’m glad we stayed friends after all these years. He was my first love, my puppy love. We may not be inlove with each other anymore but I am just so happy we crossed paths because he’s an angel! Haha i miss you enjay! Please be safe and i hope you come back soon!
I don’t know what to feel or how to react. My lola passed away :’( i will miss her. Rest in peace lola lhet :(